I may be a little bit of an emotional wreck this week. I am about to let my Anthony and millions onto the world. It's odd because I have known that this point in time is coming for a while but now it's finally here.
My friend Toby was over. Toby for all those who doesn't know is amazing. He is one of my best mates and one of the coolest cats you have ever met. Anyway on Monday we were lying on my bed listening to music and just generally chatting when I realized that I won't have the beautiful pleasure of just being in his company.
Today is valentines day! Joy for commercialism but hey! Pan wrote me a card and in it he wrote "My favorite thing is when we just... are. A simple moment. Quiet. Unassuming. And then you say something and suddenly the world seems beautiful... different. clearer" and this is so true but not only of Pan but all my friends.
I just love being with you. Toby, Ollie, Caitlin, Jess, Hannah, Kate, Sarah... I just could go on forever, I have that many amazing friends. I really hope you all know how amazing you are to me. Just spending time with me in hospital, I know it's hard but thank you.
I do go insane in here. Visits from everyone make me sane, well as sane as I ever am. BUT GOD HELP ME!! I AM GOING TO MISS YOU!!!!!!!!