On February the 13th I went and had a CT scan which showed that I have tumors covering my entire lungs and this basically looks like the end of the road for me.
I wish I had better news to tell you but it's got about as bad as cancers get.
On the upside I am moving into my hall in a week! I have loads of things to look forward to. I refuse to give up on life. I am going to keep living life to it's fullest until I simply can't anymore.
Don't feel too sorry for me. I have had a fabulous life and everybody has to die at some point and who knows I might even make it to twenty!!
I have been extremely lucky in my life. I have had my family who adore and love me more than I deserve. I have better friends than anybody I know. I could not have asked for a better bunch. I have been to amazing places and done amazing things and lived with no real regrets.
This way I will NEVER have to get a job, learn how to cook more than 2 minute noodles or do anything mildly productive! I never have to grow up and I can forever be a kid!! Though my forever is shorter than most, I don't mind. What I do mind is that I am going to have leave everyone I love behind.
The people I love are amazing and I am so sorry for doing this for you.
I am so very sorry.
I love you.
