Yet the tumors have hardly grown. They have grown as that is the nature of cancer but they haven't grown that much!! I have been told that although this still only gives me months it means that I have more time to spend being happy and healthy!!
I am actually able to hope that I will be able to see my brother turn 18 and I may even get to turn 20!!! No longer have to be some annoying pre-teen. I sometimes forget that this news isn't as exciting for everyone else as I still die at the end of this all but this is one of the biggest gifts I could have gotten, more time.
I am going to use this time wisely! Dad has booked a family holiday! In just under three weeks I am going to Verona, Paris & Amsterdam. I am going to the Anne Frank house. This may be slightly morbid and I guess it is. I sometimes forget how much I have changed since I turned 18.
I know it made me grow up fast, I understand that but what I sometimes forget is how morbid it makes me. I don't really talk about it knowingly but it is such a constant presence that I forget that it is not normal for most people.
Sometimes I feel a bit lonely just because I don't really have anyone I know who has been in the situation as I have. This is why I feel in love with the book 'The Fault In Our Stars' by John Green. It's such a wonderful book, from somebody who
Hazel Grace and Augustus Waters, although they are only made up characters are my friends who help me through this. In this book the girl falls in love with a book (book-ception, me thinks) and it makes her want to go to Amsterdam and while she is there she goes to the Anne Frank house and this spectacular book made me want to do this exact same thing.
This may not seem like a miracle but having more time being healthy for just a few more months is more than I could have hoped for.
So Happy Easter!! Spend time with those you love, cherish them because everyday is precious.