It is getting worse and worse and it sucks. The biggest problem that I am having at the moment is with tiredness. Tiredness is something that everyone has to deal with but it's something nobody truly understands because tiredness doesn't cover it. I am exhausted, constantly.
It means that I go to sleep exhausted, I wake up exhausted and there is nothing I can do to change that but it's worse than that. I am starting to struggle with concentration. I have decided to stop doing my uni work and just go to the lectures as it's too difficult to concentrate anymore.
I also am more emotional than I normally am and this messes with me. I am not an emotional person but recently I have started being really upset for no reason then snapping and then all of a sudden having a 180 shift and be giggling or talking nonsensically and it's just getting harder to do simple things like get ready.
I struggle but there is nothing I can do to change any of the above apart from profusely apologize to those who I live with especially to Guy and Hannah who bear the brunt of most of them! I wish I could say it was going to get better but I know it won't, it's only going to get worse.
Luckily, dogs exist.
Hi Harriet, I found your blog by way of Fifi Coulston and have been following for a few months. I really enjoyed reading about your trip to Europe and in particular to Anne Frank's house. I absolutely loved The Fault in Our Stars too, in fact, it sparked a whole YA fiction phase for me.. although nothing yet has held a candle to Hazel & Augustus' story.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I heard an interview with John Green on Radio NZ the other day and thought of you. Here's the link in case you didn't hear it. http://www.radionz.co.nz/national/highlights/ninetonoon/20130522
Stay strong... your writing, your whole attitude towards life, really is inspirational.